Update: I’m not dead.
Not yet, anyway.
May 2019. Burnaby, BC, Canada.
I’m going to be real for a moment with you, internet.
There were many moments between August 2016 and now when I wished I was dead. I can honestly say that I was not prepared for the emotional and mental gymnastics university would toss my way, not to mention all that has occurred in my personal life.
Despite that, I’m still here.
Having the gift of hindsight, I would still say it was all worth it.
Here are some things I’ve accomplished while I’ve neglected this poor ol’ blog:
- [Fall 2016] I volunteer for my first academic conference, New Ways of Analyzing Variation 45. It establishes a firm foundation for my sociolinguistic interests. I meet grad students and professors that I stay in touch with all the years I’m at SFU.
- [Fall 2017] Syntax emerges as a primary interest in my major. I think about further research as well as grad school, and contact former professors for advice.
- [Summer 2018] I take on a directed research semester at my university’s syntax lab, analyzing data and literature from graduate students regarding whether or not people find singular ‘they’ to be grammatical, and why.
- [Summer 2018] I am selected for my first academic fellowship, which helps me gain desired experience in library work, and prepares me for graduate level challenges.
- [Spring 2019] I am offered a place in the MS Library and Information Science program at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign, my first choice.
- [Spring 2019] I graduate with my BA in Linguistics from Simon Fraser University. (The ceremony is in two days.)
May 2018. Vancouver, BC, Canada.
There were a great number of challenges in my time in Canada, which I won’t bother getting into here. I’d much prefer to focus on what’s gone right.
Overall, my university has been a truly fulfilling experience. I have made and maintained lots of fantastic connections with such beautiful human beings. I truly challenged myself in ways I might not have done, had I gone to another school.
There’s much more to be sorted out during the summer, but I can’t help but feel a sort of contentment about all I’ve done at SFU.
Growing up, I didn’t tend to finish what I started, but I know more now than when I was younger. I know what I want, I don’t give up as easily, and I work on managing my expectations and output when I have the energy to.
Let’s also not forget that I have been lucky to have heaps of support from many people in my life: supervisors, mentors, friends, family, professors, lovers here and gone. This story isn’t complete without acknowledging them, and the time and effort they dedicated to making my life easier. Some of us may be out of touch, but the impact you made still lingers. Thank you.